23. Jul – Still not good with blogs

I think that the biggest reason for now being very active on my own blog comes from the fact that I don’t have anything polished&shining to show here. To feel proud of. My mind is is like a photo of bubbles being captured by the camera – so many different things happening yet not a single one is big enough. So many sketches.
And of course if I don’t really spend time doing what this blog was made for then there’s no result to publish, hehe. It’s so much easier to just light up the candles, turn some good music on, drink a glass of red wine and for example explore what other artistic people have done or analyze song lyrics or doodle in a sketchbook etc.

I have a huge lot of pictures to cherish that were made this summer, maybe I should try to use them somehow. Let’s see about that. I’ve made a quick collage ( again, duh ) from pictures taken on Jaanipäev/Midsummer. (They were made by Ester tho)


A year ago I bought a book by Chuck Palahniuk called “Choke” just because it had a quote saying ” Art never comes from happiness”. The book was interesting although it had nothing to do with the quote itself ( to be honest I was a bit dissapointed how small detail it was in the whole story comparing to how big influence the sentence had on me).
And I still find it to be truest thing ever said. I like positivity, don’t get me wrong. But if I have to choose between a song that is expressing happiness or a song expressing sadness – you know on which side you’ll find me. And oh how much I wish I could change that. I’m trying all the time to create playlists on Spotify with songs that bring happiness or youth enjoyment or what not. Something to play when friends are around. I keep saying to myself: the rule is not to end up adding sad songs. IN THE END I STILL DO. They are just so beautiful. They are under my skin!

Just totally out of the blue gonna mention Mew – Comforting Sounds was the best song to experience live. The recorded version which can be found on their album is also magnificent, sure, will not argue with that. But damn the emotional flow that goes through the whole body while listening to the lead vocalist create those high sounds in the end!! Maybe it’s true, maybe UFO’s exists.

Alright, cool stuff to share:


ESTER is an amazing girl from Tartu whose pictures I deeply adore and they can be found on her own personal page : https://esterkaul.tumblr.com/
Once I open the browser that’s a page that is showing first on the “most visited sites”, I swear that I’m checking it almost every day or at least few times a week. The pictures come by events and moods, I guess, so I just have to wait for the right moment when she’s inspired again. Really cool!

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Jesse Felker I found out about just recently and maybe that’s why its so freshly on my mind. His page is mostly, I guess, about adventure motorcycles ( which is also very cool) but I really like the way he portrayed the personal content which can be found: https://www.jessefelker.com/personal/
That part is propably my ” life goals” : nature, black Jeep, doggo, dirt bike and adventures.
I aspire to have other things in life also but you understand, right?

And the time is 01:42 am which means that I propably should go to sleep now if I want to help out my family tomorrow. Alright, I’ll try to be a better owner of a blog. (YEAH SURE)


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